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Giving Up Alcohol
Might not have been the first step of my recovery, but I would be dead now if I had not stopped.
October 19, 2010
By Anonymous


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Drunk guy sleeping next to bottle
In the heart of an alcoholic, it's always 3 o'clock in the morning.

"You have an eroded soul." When I heard that, I did not know what my sponsor meant, but I thought it sounded bad. Today's struggle is finding the focus to face sending payments to the IRS and State of Vermont on back taxes I owe from 2004.

Plugging the jug saved my life, that is what sucks about it. I am scheduled to spend the majority of my waking hours for the rest of my life confined to a 9x9-foot cell , euphemistically called a "cubicle," to distinguish it from a cell with a locked door. At work, we are trusted to stay within our cells without being locked in. Outside my cell, it is better than prison, based on what people who have lived there tell me. I am happy accepting their word, not wanting to learn the hard way.

My read of life is riding a raft in orbit around the sun. The raft is crowded. All resources either are spoken for or fought over by massive economic and military pressures. It seems like the best thing I maybe can do for the world is transform to dust, making way and fertilizer for the slightly smaller population left behind.

I think people will fly to new planets. We might have come from another planet already. Scientists have found evidence for the building blocks of life on Earth in its primordial stages. However, scientists have not been able to repeat the steps of making those materials into life. No one even has a clear theory for exactly how it could happen in nature.

A very smart person I know pointed out that if we were to send ourselves to another planet, light years away, we might send ourselves in the form of some slimy DNA type of substance that could survive a 1000-generation journey to another fertile planet. Given everything we know, how do we know such a scheme is not exactly what brought us here to Earth?

Great thoughts, worth at least a Nobel Prize for whomever thought it up. I don't know exactly where that smart person I mentioned got the idea.

So what's this all got to do with not drinking? Nothing, really. Not drinking consists of not drinking. It has nothing to do with anything else.

However, being as that I am one who practically never can leave well enough alone, I worry about finding the next planet we need, straightening out Barack Obama and the US Military Industrial Complex, not to mention the money I have been unable to muster for support of my children.

So, I go to AA to clear up my stinking thinking. But I am not going there tonight.

My last drink was October 9, 1994. Stopping saved my life. Now I need to survive the prison of the workplace. What I really need to do, if I can, is work my way out of the prison. I was out for awhile, back in the days I did not pay my taxes, but they caught up with me and are getting the taxes I rightfully owe.

Well, to be completely honest, payments on those taxes has been kinda spotty. The great news is that starting tomorrow, my pay from prison will go automatically into my bank account, from where I can direct automatic payments every 2 weeks, when I get paid. Seems like I should have had this setup 20 years ago. Better late than never I guess.

I am grateful I don't drink today. I am going to have to start darkening the halls of AA once I get that cash flow going to the taxes.

Actually, I heard many times that the meetings need to come first, before anything else. I think that is a good principle. I admit to being a hypocrite.

Talk to you later.

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